I stand in front of the mirror applying make up. I am doing this without thought or feeling; simply doing what I do as moment follows moment. Suddenly, happiness rises up. I am, in that moment the happiest soul I can be. For a few seconds in the gap I see clearly, and I feel joy and gratitude. It is fleeting but its imprint stays with me as my day progresses.
Squabbles between my children, negotiating traffic, obstacles arise throughout but I am flying and smiling, rising above it all. Sure, stuff gets under my skin but there's always something to bring me back. Some thing that I can do to regroup, to find peace because I'm on a wonderful part of my journey. Nowhere truly special, no vacation, no fabulous happenings...just being here is all it takes.
I wave to the couple moving in across the street. I have been wanting to connect in this small way after I watched their scene unfold last week - she was stressed, he was trying to help. Their neighbor, a young woman, pulled into the parking space next to them and I observed the man look at her a few times in an attempt to establish first contact. But the neighbor utterly ignored them despite the close proximity of all involved. I wondered why. So, I remedied the situation in my own way this morning. They waved and smiled in return. I could tell that my reaching out made them happy and that made me happy too.
Lately, I am doing so very well; my heart is singing. I am humorous and laughing and making others laugh.
Perhaps I have learned to stop fighting certain things. Currently, these things float as if they are lily pads on the surface of a pond. There, I can be curious about them. I think I'm fine with that because these things just can't be banished no matter how I struggle to fling them away.
Of course, this may change and I may find myself wrestling with them again at some point further down the road.
If so, then that will be then. For now, this is now. And now, I'm doing just fine.
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